3-4-13


Dearest xxx,

I am heartily sorry for offending you. True, that through my words & actions, I have hurt you in so many ways. I am sorry that I am not your expected man you want to be with, so I give you the space so you could breath. I am sorry that a foolish, selfish man like me wants your attention, but I kept my distance so you'd be free. I am sorry that I made you sad & sometimes angry, I was just doing that so you could give me attention. I am sorry that I kept on going to you, it's because I want to spend 'precious' times with you, although you don't want it at all. I am sorry that I fell in love with you. I know that for now you'll not believe in me because of what happened to me. Well, I just did all that because I was searching for love from somebody else & I thought I found her but realized she didn't gave her her love at all. I am sorry because I have failed you.

Do not worry xxx, time is almost running out; few days from now & we'll be parting ways. But I'll always remember you in my heart. You'll always have a space in my heart. I know that you're moody & don't want to talk to me, honestly, I get hurt when you always reject me. But it's okay.

I'll never forget this line you said to me:

"Someday you'll realized that you're throwing diamonds while collecting pebbles".

And now, I realized it. So much. All my life I was collecting pebbles (money & material things) while I never noticed that I was throwing diamonds (my family, friends, YOU). And I never taught of that but there's you who did! I never taught my friends and family were my diamonds. Thank you xxx. Because you taught me that. Thank you. Form now on, I'll treasure every diamonds that God has given me & save them up & love them like there's no tomorrow.

And most of all:
I'll never let go of you even if you let go & there's nothing to hold on anymore. I'm different form the other men you know. And allow me to prove it.

THANK YOU & SORRY. :-(

Aishiteru